Good morning!
March 4, 2008
Wow it’s been a while since I last updated huh?
I guess I stopped writing for a while to get my life back on track after the dengue scare and having to catch up with 2 weeks’ worth of work. February passed by rather quickly didn’t it? Before you know it, July will be here already! I’m looking forward to many highlights over the next few months, so time will pass even faster. There’s my Perth trip for Amanda’s wedding in April, my sister returning home in May, my driving test in June (which I want to pass on the first attempt!!) and my first year on the job in July. I love it; they give everyday a little something to look forward to.
Well, before I get started on my work, I actually dropped by to share something that caught me unawares this morning. When I realized how much it affected me, it was a huge reality check.
I just found out that a close friend I hadn’t spoken much to in the last 2-3 months had gotten a job in the industry and company that I’ve been secretly wishing to get into. My first thought was, “Dang! I wish I was the one who got the job in XX Company. Man, I’m so jealous!” And the more I thought about it, the more resentful I got. The more resentful I got, the more disgusting I felt.
Can you believe it? Today started as a beautifully cool morning, I was feeling rested and I unplugged my earphones so that I could focus on God more. So while I was feeling all holy and near God, an email comes and BAM! Just an innocent one liner, and I’m feeling like such a loser.
I quickly took myself outside of the impending self-pitying funk. From previous experience, if I let my thoughts spiral out of control, I’d probably have a stinking bad day and a horrible self-esteem to boot. To be honest, there’s really no point regretting that I didn’t score with XX Company, I didn’t even try hard enough to apply for a job there! But I know the power of envy is ever present and real.
On that note, I’m still with my present job but mindsets have changed and I will stay as long as God keeps me here. When it’s time to go, I will know it.
If most of us are ashamed of shabby clothes and shoddy furniture, let us be more ashamed of shabby ideas and shoddy philosophies…. It would be a sad situation if the wrapper were better than the meat wrapped inside it. ~Albert Einstein (What an absolutely brilliant quote!)
