wonderment

I’m falling in love. Yes, in love. So much so that I think of Him whenever I can. Each time I think of Him, my heart leaps and I feel a fresh flush of love. It’s a fantastic feeling because I don’t have to guess whether He loves me. I know He does. He isn’t bored with me or is He ever going to get bored of me. That’s really important to me. I’m falling in love with the God of the universe. I can’t even begin to tell you where He starts and when He stops because He is that big. I don’t know why I fell in love with Him. He isn’t super good-looking (I’ve never seen Him in the flesh for that matter) neither is He the class valedictorian. I fell in love with my God because He was pursuing me even before I knew He loved me. I love Him because He has changed me with His love. Nobody has ever given that many chances, helped me see who I can be, and led me whenever I felt like I was getting horribly lost. My desk is filled with pictures of oceans and mountains but I know that’s an unsatisfyingly inadequate representation of His creative streak. Nothing beats standing on a high mountain peak with the world at your feet and the heavens a touch away. However, whenever I peer into my monitor, my breath catches in my throat - I experience a rush of love all over again. Girls fall in love with guys who do things to please them and I’m no different. He is the God who gave each star its name, the God who makes sure the sun rises and sets each day, the God who puts breath in every single living thing - yet He made everything beautiful so that I could take pleasure in it. Me? Who am I that God should take interest in me? I am neither talented, nor beautiful/ Mother Theresa/Bill Bright/ … nothing … I am just an ordinary 21-year-old girl who is more concerned about which way my hair sticks out for Someone so powerful to notice I even exist. Yet, by golly! He notices me, but more than that, He is with me constantly 24 hours a day, I don’t have to miss His presence.
His love brings me deeper than the deepest love.
His hope lets me soar like the eagle even though my outer body wastes away.
His joy rejuvenates me each day.
His peace fills me, I am not afraid in the most trying circumstance.
His patience is beyond my understanding. I don’t know why He can be that patient with me.
His kindness puts praise on my lips for him everyday of my life.
His goodness makes it my life’s goal to be as good as He is to other people who don’t know Him yet.
His gentleness soothes my aching heart.
His self-control doesn’t indulge me and disciplines me so that I know what is right. I am dearly loved! I am supported! I am prayed for! I am thought of! I am shaped and molded! God is the strength of my heart. My Friend, my Helper, my Doctor, my Father, my Teacher, my Lover. I love You, God. I will do everything in my power and more to praise you and make sure Your name gets the glory it deserves