wonderment

You know, God speaks through the unlikeliest of people at the unlikeliest of times.

I know He’s been trying to say this for a while and I’ve been trying to convince myself to believe it but to hear someone actually rebuke me for it was something new.

It was as if God had taken her voice to tell me,
“Ruth Song, you wake up! I’ve chosen to put you here for no other purpose but Mine. Quit saying that you’re young and inadequate or that you need theological training. I’m God, don’t you say you trust me? Where’s that trust? Where’s the obedience you profess? Don’t excuse yourself because I’ve got a message and you’ve got to tell it!”

I was thoroughly shocked because that’s exactly what I’ve been trying to convince myself to believe for the past year. How sad it is that I cannot believe what the Word says and someone has to tell me what God is saying!

All this going on about studying and all is a means of running away. I know how much easier I’ll have it if I don’t carry on in this ministry.

Lord, I pray that I’ll keep my eyes focussed on the race I have ahead. It is an important place and since you have so divinely put me in such a place, You’ve prepared me for more than enough. I know this is such a fertile learning ground. I’ve even admitted that my 3 years in poly didn’t equip me adequately enough to meet the demands of this job technically. Yet I’ve soared through the last year by nothing except Your strength and loving mercy.

May I never forget that!

Do not let anyone (especially myself) look down on [me] because [I] am young. But set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity. Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching. Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through a prophetic message when the body of elders laid their hands on you. Be diligent in these matters; give yourself wholly to them, so that everyone may see your progress. Watch your life and doctrine closely. Persevere in them, because if you do, you will save both yourself and your hearers. (1 Tim 4:12-16)

Hello! Was this written for me or something???